Life

So things feel like they are going well for me at the moment.  That worries me when I think about it too much (why am I not being tried more??), but I'm going to think positively and not be worried about it.  It's not like everything is perfect.  But here's my take on what others perceive as negative:

1) I live with my parents.  Yeah, and?  My mom LIKES having me here.  I LIKE living here.  Yeah, I'd like my husband and I to have more privacy, and I'd like to feel like I have things that are MINE and not someone else's.  But so what... I have a roof over my head.  There's room for us all.  We have privacy when we really need it, and we can leave the house if we want to be alone.  If we move out, we still need to live pretty close, since Jay works in Elgin and I work in South Elgin (at my mom's shop).  I also work in Batavia, so we can't move too far north, and Jay's job is on the far north side of Elgin, so we can't move too far south.  For the time being, where we are is ok.  PLUS, I haven't really talked to anyone about this yet except my mom, but I'd like to start pioneering.  I'm going to give myself 3 months to work toward it.  It would be really hard if we move out.

2)  We don't make a lot of money.  Well, I'd say we make more than at least 10% of the population who are out of work, and I'm thankful that we are both working consistently.  I keep praying that Jay keeps his job.  They are talking about moving out towards O'hare.  Well, that would be a drive, but it's totally doable, about 45 minutes to an hour, depending on traffic.  It only takes half an hour to get there in no traffic.  It also depends on where "near O'hare" is.  Is it Rosemont, or Elk Grove?  Not too bad.  Is it Bensenville or Schiller Park, ok, that's a little farther.  But he'd still be working.  He thinks he'd have to find a new job.  I say he should be thankful they aren't moving to Texas (I've had that happen to me twice).

And on the other side of that, we have enough.  We pay our bills, and things have worked out so that I've been able to pay OFF a lot.  I'd say that as long as we live within our means, we can do ok.

I don't expect things to be perfect, and I keep looking at the positive side of things.  I look at my schedule and don't think "wow, I don't have any clients this week."  I look at it and think "wow, I've got a lot of room for new clients, or last minute calls."  And you know what.  I get them!  I'm learning that it's ok to take people who call in.  I don't have to say "yes I have time right this minute."  I can say "come in an hour," and they do!  They are happy that I can get them in.

I'm also learning that I don't have to sell things I love.  I just talk about it, tell people why I love it, and if they want it, they want it, if they don't they don't.  I don't have to "sell" myself, I just have to be enthusiastic about what I do.  I don't have to sell our products, I just have to tell people how much I love them.  And I don't have to take it personally when people say no.  Sometimes THAT is the hard part.  When people say no, sometimes it feels like they think I'm lying or pulling their leg or something.  But I am learning to let that part of it go, too.  I've discovered (and been taught by others) that only 1 out of 5 people will say yes.  I just have to keep putting it out there, and get my 4 no's so I can get my yes.

Awesome.